No one’s coming to save you.
No one’s coming to save you.
Hello 👋
How are you doing today? I hope you have been staying kind to yourself and to those around you. We sometimes get too busy and stuck in our head to remember to actively choose kindness, but I do hope this serves as a reminder that you are deserving of it.
Breathe, you are here and you are important. ✨
You see, as I have probably mentioned a handful of times, I have a very active imagination and I over-think, a lot. My brain comes up with the most interesting scenarios in almost all situations, positive and otherwise. I am stuck in a never-ending wheel house of thoughts, and of course, as you can imagine things do usually spin out of control. Because I can do bad all by myself, thanks to a brain that likes to flex its imaginative muscles. 🤓
It gets too much sometimes, I just want to scream at the voice that follows me everywhere, that won’t take a break even in my sleep. I want to be able to put these thoughts aside and separate reality from the things my mind has conjured. I’ll like to be saved from myself and my thoughts, to have someone do the heavy lifting of trying to silence the raging thoughts but the truth is, no one is coming to save me. Truthfully, no one can. Some work cannot be delegated or outsourced, this is one of them.
To distract myself from spiralling often, I have to either watch something or have a form of background noise but even that gets a little too much at times. I have learned to identify what is really going on from what I think should be going on whether good or bad, even though it’s hard at times, it helps. I have taken up quite a number of hobbies that are helpful on the days I can will myself to do them. Honorable mention goes to medication, when I am medicated, I find that it’s easier to separate my thoughts, the part where I am overthinking or spiralling to actual thoughts that needs attention.
So yeah, this is how I am trying to save myself, one day at a time. It’s not the easiest thing, I get some semblance of silence on some days, and other days it’s a Lagos party that keeps the neighbourhood up. But ija wa, ija o si, always guiding (ask your Yoruba-speaking friend for a translation!)
Alright! That’s it for this week folks, I hope you have a really good week and that you are able to remind yourself what truly matters and focus on them. Till next time! ✨
With love.
—OMS